Control (2019) | Video Game Chats

Back in early 2020 (yes this opening anecdote I insist on writing) I found myself looking into the BAFTA Game Awards at which Control was nominated for quite a number. I made a mental note of Control, added it to my wishlist and about a year later in February 2021, Control: Ultimate Edition was one of the PS+ games – what luck. It’s not often I go into a game knowing barely anything about it (I’ve usually watched a good chunk of gameplay), but Control is one of those games which 1) can be difficult to explain and 2) is probably best if you go in knowing as little as possible. A few days ago I finished a wonderfully strange story which balanced itself on the right side of weird for me and I’m going to do my best to do it justice.

Control very much drops you in it with very little explanation as to why the player character, Jesse Faden, is heading into the Federal Bureau of Control, and what exactly the FBC does. But very quickly, a series of events which I won’t get into the specifics of play out and suddenly Jesse finds herself as the Director of the FBC and anyone she encounters as she makes her way through The Oldest House – a concrete behemoth in NYC – does not question the sudden change in leadership. It’s not necessarily spooky, but it is a little bit weird. The final thing I’ll say about the story synopsis is that The Oldest House has found itself overwhelmed by what I can only describe as a bad type of “energy” – The Hiss; people influenced by this energy are your enemies.

taken from controlgame.com

There were two things which really struck me when I started playing Control. One of which was how this game, from the very early stages says “I’m going to let you feel cool – you’re welcome”. You might not actually be unstoppable, but you sure as hell feel like it. You acquire a number of abilities in the early stages of the game, the first of which being “Launch Ability’ aka telekinesis. So sure, I do have a gun which regenerates ammunition automatically, but also I can just pick up an office desk or a block of concrete and launch it at the bad guys which is just more fun. Obviously a lot of games allow players to experience a kind of power fantasy but often the games I play require you to put the hours in first. Control does not. Control lets you launch things, levitate, seize minds and more very early on. It wants you to feel powerful. And it’s a lot of fun. There’s a relatively short section towards the end of the story which allows you to utilise all of your abilities with some amazing music playing over the top, even Jesse comments on how cool she feels – I would have happily replayed this section over and over again. So yeah, the combat and abilities you acquire ludicrously early in the game are fantastic and just a whole lot of fun.

The second thing which I got potentially too much enjoyment out of was navigating The Oldest House which I realise is quite tame in comparison to the telekinesis etc I’ve just been talking about. But, something about not needing, or really wanting to open the map but the signage around the building makes is relatively straightforward to get around the place. It works like any well designed building should; you enter one new area and within moments you’ll be faced with signposts directing you to other departments. I feel like it’s such a tiny thing to find so much joy in but here I am. I spent a lot of the game avoiding opening up the map, because I knew that if I could read the signs properly they were quite reliable. I’ll also take this opportunity to declare that I’ve never considered concrete to be so wonderfully, beautifully desctructable. The design of Control really just runs with brutalist architecture (there are a number of videos on this) and I, for one, grew rather fond of it over the course of the game.

taken from controlgame.com

The story, without getting into specific spoilers, whilst not necessarily my favourite aspect of the game, had me extremely intrigued from the start simply because you’re dropped into the game with a lot of questions and absolutely no answers. I’d compare it to what I experience when I played Horizon Zero Dawn last year (a game I consider to be one of my favourite games but failed to write a coherent post on), I just kept playing both of these games because I wanted answers. Usually I take games quite slowly but finished Control’s main story less than a week into playing it. I can’t precisely say exactly what my play time of the main game was but after a quick search the general time given is 10-15 hours depending on how many side quests you complete. That being said, when I had finished the game (after however many hours) I did have to sit and think just to make sure I had grasped exactly what was going on and even now I’m sure there are things which I’ve forgotten. But I do think that’s part of Control’s whole deal. It’s about the unknown, about the things which are hidden in plain sight but we miss as we can’t see for looking.

taken from controlgame.com

Whilst making some notes to start writing this post, I didn’t mention anything really about specific characters or about voice acting, which usually I try to take note of, and that’s not to say any of that is bad. Just in comparison to the other, superb aspects of the game, they feel quite small. I liked playing as Jesse, think Courtney Hope’s performance is fantastic, and found her compelling enough as a character but I don’t love her like I often do with player characters. Similarly, I feel like I never got to “know” the side characters enough to form any kind of strong opinion on them. There’s only one other character of particular note for me, a character you never actually meet – Dr Casper Darling (portrayed by Matthew Porretta) – a scientist who appears on live action projectors around the game. I found his character so interesting through the bits of footage revealed throughout and Porretta’s performance throughout was brilliant. But for me, he was the only other character I even vaguely cared about. That being said, at the time of writing, I’ve yet to finish all of the side quests and to play the DLC which is included in the Ultimate Edition so there is time for me to form these opinions.

So in short, I love Control and think it is totally deserving of the praise it was receiving when it first came to my attention at the beginning of last year. As I’ve said I still have plenty of content to get through and I have got my heart set on at least trying to get the Platinum Trophy (I’ve been trying the same boss fight for days at this point) so I’ve not finished with Control and The Oldest House yet. But I adore the strangeness it brought into my life for a short while. I’m not sure I understand the world of Control, I’m not sure I’m supposed to fully understand it but I love the weirdness, I’ll bask in the unknown – I love the strangeness of it all.

What I Read in October 2020

Well, October was painfully slow month for me and I feel like I barely read anything (by my usual standards) – even what I did read I felt a little ambivalent about, even if I gave them good ratings. Honestly I think those general feelings of ambivalence towards a lot of the reading I did this month was just because I wasn’t necessarily in the best place for a couple of weeks. But I did some reading nonetheless and I’m here to share it with you.

Continue reading “What I Read in October 2020”

The Love Curse of Melody McIntyre by Robin Talley | Book Review

‘Melody McIntyre, stage manager extraordinaire, has a plan for everything. Lead actor need a breath mint? She’s on it. Understudy bust a seam? Mel’s sewing kit is at the ready. Not only is her Plan A foolproof, she’s got a Plan B, and a Plan C, because actors can be total fools.

What she doesn’t have? Success with love. Every time she falls for someone during a school performance, both the romance and the show end in catastrophe. So, Mel swears off any entanglements until their upcoming production of Les Mis is over.

Of course, Mel didn’t count on Odile Rose, rising star in the acting world, auditioning for the spring performance. And she definitely didn’t expect Odile to be sweet and funny, and care as much about the play’s success as Mel.

Which means that Melody McIntyre’s only plan now is trying desperately not to fall in love.’



Robin Talley is fantastic is bringing the world sapphic love stories and that’s what I presumed Love Curse was going to be, but I’m not sure it really is. Whilst the romance between Melody, the stage manager for her school’s production of Les Mis and the actress in one of the leading roles, plays a large role in the story, I would argue its more about the production and theatre group as a whole. As someone with a casual interest in musicals I found the references to Broadway shows fun to begin with – unfortunately for me it got tiring quite quickly. The characters, especially Mel as the first-person narrator of the novel, are unashamedly and utterly devoted to their show. 

Largely, I found the characters in Love Curse okay – they served their purpose and I didn’t have any strong feelings about them either way. The two core young women at the heart of the story – Melody and Odile – do stand out amongst the array of students involved in the production. Melody is stubborn (almost frustratingly so) and completely unashamed of who she is. It’s refreshing to read about a character who doesn’t internally shame herself for the number of relationships she’s had or the fact she wants to follow a creative career path rather than an academic one. But I found it difficult to settle into her narrative voice – at times towards the beginning of the story she felt like a younger narrator than she is. Odile, the rising acting star, felt genuinely quite charming and I really enjoyed her as a character, but I don’t have much else to say on her.

Generally speaking, Love Curse is a story about a group of young people coming together on the verge of a disaster however there was one aspect of the premise which irked me from the beginning. The “love curse” of the title ties to the superstitions surrounding theatre – Mel’s friends believe that whenever she is in a relationship, their show goes wrong. Long story short, they agree that Mel is not to fall in love over the course of their production of Les Mis. If Mel had made identified the connection herself and made a kind of internalised agreement with herself, I would have probably been more on board. But there was something about her friends confronting her about it which felt genuinely unpleasant and I wish Mel reacted in a different way. I understand that the cast and crew are a superstitious bunch but that just felt like they were crossing a line. 

Overall, The Love Curse of Melody McIntyre was a chaotic and fun journey through the process of putting on a theatre production. The vast array of characters at times blurred into one another but the plot surrounding superstitions really carried the novel through. Whilst the romance felt a little underdeveloped it was great to see Robin Talley deliver on another sapphic love story. It’s definitely a fun book with moments of seriousness and packed to the brim with drama. 

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Thank you to Netgalley and the publishers for an ebook copy in exchange for a review.

Books I Want to Get Before the End of the Year

Now we’re in the last quarter of the year let’s not dwell on that for too long I decided to go through my TBR list and try and sort it into a series of priorities. I’ve decided to only include books I own or have bought rather than the long list of books I’ve yet to get my hands on (either buying them or borrowing them from the library). And my physical TBR list currently stands at about 38 books and I really want to try and keep it down. So, after sorting my TBR through multiple times and trying to sort it into priority order these are the books I want to read by the end of 2020.

The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab

Goodreads Link

So I don’t actually have a copy of this on my shelves as it comes out on 6/10/2020 but I have preordered a copy and who knows, by the time this blog post goes out my copy might have been shipped.

I’m not huge into anticipating releases. Often books by authors I love creep up on me and suddenly I stumble across it weeks after its release but it is almost impossible to miss a Schwab release. Similarly, I don’t shout about my love for her stories all that often, even though I consider multiple of them favourites. It’s been a while since we last had an adult fiction release from V.E. Schwab and I am excited to read a new book from her. Addie LaRue seems like a book I could enjoy a lot more than her other novels. I’m trying my best to avoid spoilers and reviews until I have given the book a go myself but as soon as Addie LaRue is delivered, I will be reading it.


Salt Slow by Julia Armfield

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At the beginning of September I visited a bookshop for the first time in month, armed with a gift token. By the time I picked this book up, I have two other books in my arms and then I saw this on the shelf. Salt Slow is a short story collection which I had seen around on Instagram. I’d seen that it was quite dark, features magical elements and its rating on Goodreads is high. I am so excited to see what this story collection holds.


Pachinko by Min Jin Lee

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One of the aforementioned books I was cradling in the bookshop at the beginning of September was Pachinko – another buy which was a little bit of an impulse. Again I’d seen this book around on Instagram and Christy Anne Jones channel and I kind of thought “why not?”, especially as its been a little while since I picked up a book set outside of Europe and America. All I really know about this book is that it is a family saga set throughout the 20th century. I’m happy to go into this book not knowing a lot and seeing where the story takes me.


Bunny by Mona Awad

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I picked up this one of a bit of a whim. I’ve heard its a bit weird, features a cult(?) but also gives me Heathers vibes – what with a group of girls who all go by the same name. Other than that I literally know nothing about this book. I’m not sure whether I want to know anymore before I go into this story. I guess I’ll see what unfolds…


The Familiars by Stacey Halls

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A couple of years ago I considered historical fiction to be my favourite genre, but since then I’ve realised I don’t actually read that many. I’ve had The Familiars on my shelves for well over a year at this point – it’s often a book I forget that I own. From what I remember its about a woman who, after several complications during her pregnancy, finds a midwife in the hope she’ll give birth during the 17th century when witch trials were taking place across England. I’m intrigued to see where this point goes and hopefully I’ll want to pick up more of Stacey Halls books in the future.


So those are the books I want to get to by the end of 2020. I’d like to say that I’m definitely going to do it but who knows which books are going to tumble into my hands between now and January.

What are you hoping to read before the end of 2020?

What I Read in September 2020

So… September happened. I feel like September truly just slipped through my fingers when I wasn’t looking and suddenly here we are on the edge of October. In September I did the same as in August and roll a TBR, but only actually read about half of the books on there but what I did read this month, I did like. I don’t think there is any rating here under three stars. Anyway, short preamble over – here are the books I read in September.

Dracula’s Child by J.S. Barnes

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | My Review

I started the month with a Netgalley ebook for review, so I do have a full post on my thoughts but this book basically follows the same characters from Dracula by Bram Stoker a number of years after the events of the original novel. In short, this book was a tale of two halves for me. The first half felt genuinely authentic in voice and tone but the latter parts of the novel felt like it was losing some of the eeriness and the atmosphere that had been built up throughout. If you love the character in Stoker’s novel (and are willing to establish something of a disconnect between the 19th century novel and this book), Dracula’s Child might be one to consider.


Spare and Found Parts by Sarah Maria Griffin

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

After reading Other Words for Smoke at the beginning of year, I was keen to try Sarah Maria Griffin’s debut novel and… It was very different. I really enjoyed the post apocalyptic setting and the gradual build up of society after great devastation. The general need for progress was something I really enjoyed in this book. Whilst I found elements of the novel a little predictable, I devoured the story in the space of a weekend. If a steampunk YA novel is something you’re after, then this might be a book to consider.


Catherine House by Elisabeth Thomas

Rating: 4 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

I heard about the book a couple of months ago and have avoided reviews of it since. I was intrigued about the idea of such an isolated establishment and what was going on there and I loved it. I’ve since read other reviews and have seen it described as a book that no two people will have the same opinion on what its about and I can totally see that. For me, this book really raised some questions around academia and academics motivations for their research/life choices. I’m not sure it is a book I’d recommend to everyone because I can understand why some people wouldn’t get a lot out of this book. But if you’re interested in academia and mysteries potentially it is one to consider.


Hag: Forgotten Folktales Retold

Rating: 4 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | My Review

Again, I have a full review as this was a Netgalley ebook, so I won’t go into it too much here but Hag is a collection of short folkltale retellings from a variety of authors. As a collection, this one works really well and has a wonderful share of historical retellings and stories which bring folktales into the 21st century. It doesn’t come out until the beginning of October but each story is available in an audible podcast series I believe if you want to get a taster before investing in the book. But I wholly enjoyed this book and definitely recommend it if its something you’re interested in.


Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

Rating: 5 out of 5.

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In September I watched the 2005 Pride and Prejudice film for the first time and utterly adored it. In short, it completely changed the way I looked at Austen story and characters – how dare the world convince me that Darcy is a horrible man, he’s just horrifically awkward. So I immediately decided to give it a reread, having not read the book as a whole since I was about fourteen. Now, I gave it this time a 5 star rating as opposed to the 3 stars it had before. A new perspective on the novel truly changed my opinion of the story and Austen as a writer. I’m not saying I’m an Austen fan yet, but it looks like I could be heading that way.


Emma by Jane Austen

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

After finished P&P I was still in a Regency era kind of mood so (with the help of an instagram poll) decided to pick up Emma and it was alright… I found it interesting following Emma – a character I found pretty unlikable. There were elements I found a little entertaining but largely just found the plot a bit dull. I do intend on reading the 2020 film at some point in the near future and potentially that will alter my opinion of the story, but until then its one of my least favourite Austen novels.


As I write this post I’m also about 150 pages into Girl, Woman, Other by Bernadine Evaristo and whilst I’m not going to rush to get it finished by the end of the month, I am really enjoying it and imagine I’ll finish it soon!

Whilst September wasn’t a great month in terms of the number of books I read, the ratings were pretty good. I also managed to read a variety of genres – reading two classics in a month feels like quite the achievement.

What did you enjoy reading in September? Have you read any of these books? Do let me know!

Dracula’s Child by J.S. Barnes | Spoiler Free Book Review

It has been some years since Jonathan and Mina Harker survived their ordeal in Transylvania and, vanquishing Count Dracula, returned to England to try and live ordinary lives. 

But shadows linger long in this world of blood feud and superstition – and, the older their son Quincey gets, the deeper the shadows that lengthen at the heart of the Harkers’ marriage. Jonathan has turned back to drink; Mina finds herself isolated inside the confines of her own family; Quincey himself struggles to live up to a family of such high renown. 

And when a gathering of old friends leads to unexpected tragedy, the very particular wounds in the heart of the Harkers’ marriage are about to be exposed…

There is darkness both within the marriage and without – for new evil is arising on the Continent. A naturalist is bringing a new species of bat back to London; two English gentlemen, on their separate tours of the Continent, find a strange quixotic love for each other, and stumble into a calamity far worse than either has imagined; and the vestiges of something forgotten long ago is finally beginning to stir…

[SYNOPSIS TAKEN FROM NETGALLEY]


I read Bram Stoker’s Dracula at the end of 2019 and when I saw this title pop up on NetGalley I was intrigued. What I’ve wanted since finishing the original late 19th century text is more of the same, and Dracula’s Child seemed to offer just that. However, whilst the novel initially offers the same eerie atmosphere and the voices of characters I’d grown to love, as the story progresses, I felt like some of those elements were lost.

When reflecting on Dracula’s Child I realise that my reading experience was one of two halves – the beginning was so authentically eerie, slow and necessarily creepy at times and the second half of the novel was paced a little quicker but my interest in the plot dropped severely. Everything about the novel just felt stronger in the first half than the second. But it was in the second half of the book I really realised what Barnes was doing with Dracula’s Child. It shows what the later stages in Dracula’s plans were. It answers the question: what if Dracula got further into what he was planning? And reveals all. I think the change in the scale of the supernatural in this book didn’t appeal to me. The threat was so much more obvious to the readers (although the characters didn’t always catch on as quickly as they perhaps should have) and I think that took away from the eeriness.

Much like the text it is inspired by, Dracula’s Child takes the form of diary entries, letters, newspaper articles and the like. It feels so true to the world that Dracula inhabits, and Barnes does a fantastic job of recreating the voices of characters such as Mina and Johnathan Harker in an authentic enough way. New characters are introduced throughout the novel and their voices do fit into the turn of the century setting seamlessly. However, whilst the first half of the novel utilised these voices in what felt like an authentic way, the latter half really lost that at some points. The most notable instance for me was when a line of Johnathan’s speech was reported, and it sounded like he was trying too hard to sound like an action hero – and that isn’t the kind of man I understand him to be. It was at those points in which I was reminded that this is a novel of the 21stcentury which somewhat tainted my reading experience. Additionally, the characterisation of a pretty significant character (guess who?) felt a little bit off as they decided to perform a little monologue explaining why they were going to get revenge. Considering other core characters were so well executed, these moments really just stuck out as being weaker.

Whilst occasionally the language does slip, many other elements of the novel do feel authentic to the late 19th/early 20th century. There are scenes which feel very reminiscent of classic Gothic and early vampire novels without ever feeling particularly cliché. Even the aspects of vampire fiction which have been popularised by Dracula don’t really make an appearance in this novel and I didn’t mind. It was refreshing in a way. 

Overall, despite its dips in plot and characterisation, Dracula’s Child is worth considering if you’re a fan of the late 19th century story. It definitely feels authentically creepy at the right moments and adds something different to the lives of these characters. If you’re a fan of the original text, or perhaps just want something a little bit spooky as we approach October, Dracula’s Child might be one to pick up.

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Thank you to Netgalley and the publishers for an ebook copy in exchange for a review.

Let’s Talk about: Resident Evil 2 (2019) | Video Game Chats

As I was wrapping up my dissertation, I saw the Resident Evil 2 remake on sale. I’d never played a horror game in my life and I’m not really a fan of horror as a genre. But I had watched a lot of gameplay from the Resident Evil series and I was ready to give it a go, apparently. So I picked it up as a “you submitted your dissertation” present to myself and played about 45 minutes of it before avoiding it for months. But in August, I picked it back up again and completed the story, and now I’d like to talk about it.

taken from Resident Evil 2 (2019) IMDB page

Resident Evil 2 (2019) is a remake of the 1998 game of the same name and you have the opportunity to play as both Leon and Claire as they make their way through a monster infested Racoon City. Whilst each character’s story differs in significant ways regarding the plot, the events occur almost in parallel – they pass through the same areas of the city, have to solve the same puzzles and (up until a point) fight the same monsters. When you open up the game for the first time, you’re asked whether you want to play as Leon S. Kennedy or Claire Redfield (for my first play through, I chose Leon’s story). After completing that story, you’ll unlock the other character’s “2nd run” – so I was able to see what Claire was doing, whilst I had been running around the city as Leon. You’re only able to see the “true ending” if you complete both stories in a 1st+2nd run format.

Out of the two stories, I found Claire’s more compelling. The characters you stumble across are more interesting (and in one case, disturbing and disgusting) and I felt I definitely knew why Claire was putting herself in the danger she was. I think the key difference between Claire and Leon’s stories is the scale of the problems they are faced with. Claire’s story focuses much more on family relations throughout – the reason she’s in Racoon City in the first place is to locate her brother who she hasn’t heard from; whereas Leon’s story focuses much more on the potential widespread implications regarding the dealings of the Umbrella Corporation. Maybe I enjoyed the fact that Claire’s story felt a little more personal. Generally speaking both plots which play out are compelling – enough to make me carry on playing through the spookier sections of the game.

taken from Resident Evil 2 (2019) IMDB page

As I’ve said I’m not a fan of horror. I don’t often find myself drawn to a horror novel or film. It doesn’t take a lot to make me jump but Resident Evil 2 does a wonderful job at balancing the aforementioned story elements and the spookiness of the setting. The game is primarily split into three locations – Racoon City Police Department, The Sewers and Umbrella’s NEST. You spend a lot of your time in the RCDP and for me, it was easily the scariest of the locations. Many of the corridors are dark with the occasional flickering lightbulb. There are times where there are zombies or other monsters in the corridor and you simply don’t have the required defence items to get past them. There are locked doors which require bolt cutters or keys which you won’t get until later in the game. If you don’t board up windows more zombies to smash their way into the building. What tops this all off is the Tyrant known to many as Mr X. I am not a fan of Mr X and for me, he was easily the most terrifying part of the game. If you are unaware of who this delightful creature is, he stalks you through the police station but never moves quicker than a speed walk. He is relentless and the only thing I find mildly amusing about him is the fact he wears a fedora. At the time of writing I have played Claire’s story twice (as a first and second run) and I’m currently about half way through playing Leon’s story a second time and still I’m hiding in safe rooms peeking out to watch the Tyrant walk up a flight of stairs so I can safely move down the corridor in the opposite direction. Did I mention you can hear his footsteps as he searches the RCPD for you? You can hear his thundering footsteps as he searches for you. He is authentically terrifying and I love to hate his entire deal.

Stephanie Panisello as Claire Redfield in Resident Evil 2 (2019)
taken from Resident Evil 2 (2019) IMDB page

Now, it feels strange to refer to a zombie horror game as beautiful, but the world in Resident Evil 2 is stunning. I genuinely didn’t know that gore could look so good? In the RE engine, objects look disgustingly moist or wonderfully crisp when they need to be, and the lighting works extremely well too. As mentioned before, the RCPD has dark rooms and corridors, often filled with clutter; there were a number of times in my first play through where I just didn’t think to look behind the door and a zombie (or other monster) would lurch at me from the darkness. Additionally the sound design in Resident Evil 2 is something to be admired. Many of the moments where I actually felt on edge were when I heard a zombie gargling but didn’t know where it was or the Tyrant and his damn footsteps down the corridor – at one point I was playing this game with a puppy in the room who similarly didn’t like the zombie noises. In the sections in the RCPD I knew I could just down the volume down a little bit but then I wouldn’t be able to work out where the Tyrant was – I was genuinely equally scared of the audio being turned down as I was it being turned up.

But overall, Resident Evil 2 was an utter joy to play by the end of my playthroughs. There was something wonderfully satisfying about staring at the map in a safe room and whispering to myself “if I wait for Mr X to walk down that corridor and then I go upstairs and through the shower room I can quickly get back to room x,y and z before he catches up with me” and then listening for the footsteps to get quieter so I could make a run for it. By the time I got around to playing the Leon B/2nd scenario (after playing Leon A, Claire B and then Claire A) I didn’t really need to think twice about where I needed to go and what items I was going to need. I’m definitely keen to play more in this franchise with the Resident Evil 3 (2020 remake) high on my wishlist and I don’t think this is going to be the last I’ll see of Resident Evil 2.

Hag: Forgotten Folktales Retold | Book Review

‘Here are sisters fighting for the love of the same woman, a pregnant archaeologist unearthing impossible bones and lost children following you home. A panther runs through the forests of England and pixies prey upon violent men.

From the islands of Scotland to the coast of Cornwall, the mountains of Galway to the depths of the Fens, these forgotten folktales howl, cackle and sing their way into the 21st century, wildly reimagined by some of the most exciting women writing in Britain and Ireland today.’

[TAKEN FROM GOODREADS]


This story collection is a wonderful exploration of folktales from around the British Isles (and from further afield), often touching on themes of gender, sexuality and motherhood. Whilst each of the stories are unique and varied in style, they all fit seamlessly together into a coherent selection of tales. Additionally, there is a comfortable mix of stories which are historical and stories which have been brought into a contemporary setting. The historical stories such as Mahsuda Snaith’s ‘The Panther’s Tale’ were the ones which stuck with me as I continued in the book. However, contemporary settings did work extremely well in Liv Little’s ‘The Sisters’ and aids this book in bringing these folktales to new readers. 

I expected, going into this collection, for the stories to be dark, but some of the stories explore very important but horrible themes. At times I found the stories difficult to read, but it was those stories, ‘Sour Hall’ and ‘The Holloway’ most notably, which ended up being my favourites in the collection. Both Naomi Booth and Emma Glass (respectively) do a fantastic job in writing in the horror of particular experiences in a way which I think is going to stick with me for a while. [At the end of this review I am going to list some of the content warnings for this book.]

Ultimately, this collection did a wonderful job at retelling some of the forgotten folktales, intertwining landscapes which felt incredibly familiar to me as a reader with beautiful writing and storytelling. It’s introduced me to a handful of authors I want to read more from and a few stories I was otherwise unfamiliar with. 

Rating: 4 out of 5.

[Content warnings: domestic abuse, miscarriage, trauma, grief, alcoholism, homophobia, lethal illness, death of a parent, skin picking, drug abuse, child neglect, mutilation, gas lighting, use of the slurs]


thank you netgalley and the publishers for a copy in exchange for a review

What I’ve Been Writing | #2

A blog series in which I’ve made it to a second post? Remarkable. It’s been about a month and half since I wrote the first post in the series, so you’d think in that time I’d have made some incredible progress. Honestly progress has been slow and my writing hasn’t been going in the direction I thought it would. For weeks I didn’t touch my writing. I abandoned the project I was working on back in June for reasons I’ll explain in a bit. It’s taken me a while to realise some pretty important things regarding my relationship with writing but I think I’m getting there.

So with that little preamble over, let’s get into my questions:

What I’m Writing:

In August I wrote a short sapphic piece. It’s something I wrote in about two day, is extremely short and have since rewritten once. I’m not sure it is a story I want to keep revisiting, or whether it was something I did to keep myself happy at the time. Whilst it’s something I enjoyed writing, I’m not sure its got much to it other than what it is on the surface, and I’m just not sure whether I’m happy with that.

It’s only been in the last few days before writing this that I’ve been writing something completely and utterly new which also has some substance to it. It’s a story I wrote the opening for all the way back in March or April. It’s a story I had great plans for. A few months ago I was sure I knew where this story was going to start, finish and what was going to fill the bits in-between. All of those plans have been thrown out of the window over the last couple of days. It’s not going where I thought it was going. It’s a completely different story to what I had planned. But its fun and exciting. That’s all I can ask from my writing at the moment.

What’s Been Fun/Exciting?

Writing something new! Over the last few months I’ve been stuck in a pit of rewriting and editing – trying to get this one story as perfect and I can get it. But I’m trying to put that story to the side for a while. I need time away from it and come back with a fresh perspective. Once I allowed myself to step away from that story and when I started writing something a little unexpected I was having a great time with writing again.

In August I also took to reading books about writing – From Where You Dream by Robert Olen Butler and Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. I do want to collect and read a selection of these kinds of books. I’d really like to be able to have a few which I can recommend. Whilst I rated both of these books 3 stars, I think there are benefits from reading them. Even when I disagreed with what the author was saying it helped to understand how I understand and approach creativity and writing. More on this little reading project as it happens.

What’s Been Frustrating/Annoying/Hard?

I didn’t realise that I’d been stuck in a rewriting and editing loop for so long, that I hadn’t been truly excited about writing. I’d been determined to get the story right for so long and couldn’t bring myself to move on from that story. Even when I knew the sensible thing was to put that story to the side for a while, it took me so long to go and carry on writing a story I had already started. My headspace just couldn’t fully let go of the story I’d been focused on for months, but perhaps that is natural when you’ve been working on the same few thousand words for months and months.

What is the next step? What’s my aim for the next month (or so) of writing?

There are two key things I want to get done over the next few weeks.

  • Don’t fixate on one story for months on end and avoid a creative slump
  • Keep reading books on writing

I’m finding it a little odd how writing feels much more difficult and a lot less enjoyable than I did when I was at university. I think having finished a degree with creative writing elements it feels like writing has truly shifted from something I did for fun to something I need to excel in to prove myself. And, at least for now, it doesn’t have to be like that and crucially I don’t have to rush it.


On the subject on writing, I am looking to start an online writing community. If you’re interested in joining the Google form is here: https://forms.gle/Na34P12o9mMoC17d7 – I’d really appreciate it if you could fill it out!

What I Read in August 2020

August was a bit of a different reading month for me. Firstly, I was trying not to buy any new books and to get through a few more of the books I own. For the first time in a while I set up a little TBR for myself because I couldn’t choose which books I wanted to prioritise. For August I wrote up twenty prompts and then rolled a twenty-sided dice four or five times. I’m not going to list them all here but as I write about each book I will add which prompt it fulfilled.

Sorcerer to the Crown by Zen Cho

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | Prompt: Speculative fiction

I picked this book well over a year ago and finally got around to it this month. I really wanted to enjoy this one as its a historical fantasy and for the most part I did enjoy the setting and the characters a lot. The plot does take a little while to get going so if you are considering this book be prepared to read a fair amount of it, but to be fair, I did enjoy some of the character work at the beginning of the book. But this book just wasn’t for me, the inclusion of Fairyland is just something I don’t enjoy in books. It definitely is not a bad book and I can see its merits with the setting of Regency London and the characters of Zacharias and Prunella, but I’m not sure whether I was really the reader for it.


The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | Prompt: Green cover

This was a classic I couldn’t believe I hadn’t read, even though I’ve wanted to for several years and it’s alright? I enjoyed the early stages of the book as Nick observes Gatsby’s behaviour as it added a level of intrigue to his characters but it just felt a little flat. I wasn’t really blown away by the story’s ending – I just felt a bit indifferent about it. That being said I have started looking for articles written about this book as I think that is where I will truly appreciate it.


The Psychology of Animals Swallowed Alive: Love Stories by Kirsty Logan

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | Prompt: Ebook or Audiobook

This short ebook was an extremely quick read as its a chapbook with a handful of short stories and it was okay. I definitely think Kirsty Logan’s more recent books and stories are a lot stronger but there is something nice about seeing how a writer had developed over the years. So whilst some of the stories weren’t exactly what I have come to expect from Kirsty Logan’s writing but there were a couple of stories which still hit me in the way her writing does. I wouldn’t recommend this if you are new to her writing, but perhaps later down the line.


The Binding by Bridget Collins

Rating: 5 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | Prompt: randomise entire TBR

Whilst this book had a very slow start and its not exactly fast paced, it was a book I entirely devoured over a weekend. Other people who I know who have read this book describe it as weird, and yes it is. Wonderfully weird – exactly the kind of weird I like. It’s a historical novel (although the era is never specified, it feels 19th century-ish) with magical elements and, without getting into spoilers, I just love what this book does. I love how it plays with storytelling and how it twisted my understanding of the plot throughout. At times it was horrible and uncomfortable to read and at times I couldn’t stop grinning. This isn’t a book for everyone and to begin with I wasn’t sure it was a book for me, but I’m so glad I persisted with it.


Dark and Deepest Red by Anna-Marie McLemore

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link | Prompt: Let someone else pick

I read The Weight of Feathers earlier this year, and despite not loving that book I was keen to try more of Anna-Marie McLemore’s writing so had ordered a copy of their 2020 release but it really felt like it was going to be the right book for me. And, it was. Much more so than The Weight of Feathers was. I really enjoyed the multiple timelines, the characters and the magic in this book and it definitely felt stronger towards the end. I’m probably going to read it again at some point in the future, because I think I’ll get so much more out of it the second time round. Deep and Darkest Red has made me excited for the back catalogue of their books I have to read.


De Profundis and Other Prison Writings by Oscar Wilde

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

I’m pretty sure I’ve had this book on my shelves for over a year and after partially writing my dissertation on Wilde’s novel I had spent a lot of time reading around his life but still never prioritised his prison writings. Reading this book was… an experience. It’s Oscar Wilde like I’ve never read before. He’s clearly very angry, frustrated and at times comes across as completely exhausted. At times there are moments my heart sank, but at other points I just wanted Oscar to stop writing. I would say this is worth reading if you are interested in the life of Wilde, otherwise I think it would be a bit of a bore.


The Elephant Vanishes by Haruki Murakami

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

Incredibly, this was the first Murakami book I’ve read in 2020 and unfortunately I found it largely forgettable. There are a handful of stories which stuck with me but many of them have fizzled from memory. Overall I think this book didn’t stick with me as much as after the quake and Men Without Women because unlike those two short story collections, it doesn’t have a consistent theme to link the stories together. The Elephant Vanishes is a collection of individual stories which had been brought together in this translated version. And it just didn’t work for me.


From Where You Dream: On Writing Fiction by Robert Olen Butler and Janet Burroway

Rating: 3.5 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

This book was recommended to me when I was at uni and I’m trying to integrate more non-fiction writing on writing into my reading. There was elements in this book I really enjoyed, and others I simply didn’t. By the end of the book I’m not sure I’m on board with the idea of writing from a “dream space” but somethings about the actual process of writing really did resonate with me. I want to write a longer blog post about some of the book on writing I’ve been reading, so I’m going to leave this mini review here.


Wilder Girls by Rory Power

Rating: 2.5 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

I’d heard so many amazing things about this book and was so excited to get to it and it just fell a little flat. The premise is intriguing and as things were beginning to be revealed I was so ready for some feminist-fuelled action sequences to occur and they simply didn’t. By the time I got to the end of the book I had so many unanswered questions and I think if Rory Power had given a little bit more information to the reader I would have felt satisfied at the ending. I think the marketing and hype around this book promise me a lot there I didn’t get out of the book, but I’d still be interested to read Rory Power again in the future.


Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear by Elizabeth Gilbert

Rating: 3 out of 5.

Goodreads Link

This was another book I read in an attempt to read non-fiction about writing, and whilst this book is more about creativity in general rather than specifically writing there were parts of it which made me think about writing in a different way. I’ll admit at the beginning of this book I wasn’t at all on board with what Elizabeth Gilbert was saying but by the end there were elements I enjoyed. Again I won’t say too much else, but I can see why some people really enjoy this book, but also can see why its not for everyone.


And that’s what I read in August. Whilst the quantity of books I read is impressive by my average standards of reading, there weren’t that many high ratings. Hopefully September will bring some more fantastic books.

What did you enjoy reading in August? Have you read any of these books? Do let me know!